T-Minus 10 days

Been all over the place the last week or so. Had a few horrible rides and runs,
had some ok ones. Spent some time imagining bad things happening on race day, fearing the dreaded ironman shuffle. Basically letting my fears and insecurities get the best of me. On Sunday I was supposed to go out for my last long ride. I found every excuse in the book to put it off. And when I finally got out the door, I got two flats almost right away. Here's the kicker...I wasn't upset about the flats at all. I was almost in a good mood actually.

Did a lot of thinking about this...why was I happy, why didn't I want to go on that ride? I think I was so afraid of seeing a slow average speed, so afraid of feeling like crud, and getting nervous about how hard the race would be that I would rather just not ride. A little crazy really.

Well, after figuring that out, I was feeling better. I rode 70 yesterday and felt
fine, had a decent average wattage (165) and a low average HR (145bpm). Today I practice running "stoopid" slow, which I'll do for the first 6 miles or so of the marathon. Covered 6 miles in 55 minutes with an avg HR of 144bpm.
I'm fit, physcially my body is ready. My gear is all set. So all that's left is
getting my head in a good place. And that is coming around quickly.

Kia Kaha,
Philip